Shadows

...Im just goin back to the shadows
more hurt , more alone , more pain
than I was before
I cant take this anymore
my hopes and dreams
are near nothing at all.
I dont think I have it in me
to be able to stand yet again.
Fate, hope and love
has only given me utter misery,
life does not want me here,
as if Im not of this earth at all,
Im just falling apart
Putting on a clown face
just trying to fake it
so no one ever see
Im living in my worst hell
the ultimate observer,
an astronaut with perfect high view,
can walk in any shoes,
go trough time and space,
see trough every eye,
create endless wonders and fantasies,
yet with strings that only the universe can play,
I am one, one of a kind, the only one.
within a void of darkness where only I shine.

in the dark

...it is getting cold,
not just without but within,
remembrance of your eye
still linger deep inside.
I used up all my hope,
I cant feel it anymore.
diluted my very existence,
turned all there faces away.
My star faints, loosing its might.
I am all alone in this spotlight.
A stage written on the walls,
Echoes trough time and space.
I settle down in the shadows again,
All the signs repeat them self,
surrounding myself with my only friends.
In the dark no judgment is called,
we are one, above it all,
there love and hearts, it's all I got...